Goodbye 2020 – letting go of 2020

Goodbye 2020

2020 was a year unlike any other. Full stop.

I am just so relieved I survived it.

There are many, many more people in the world who had a much tougher year. After all, I didn’t have to deal with sick family members or home schooling children or working from home or all the above at once. I also didn’t lose any loved ones, job or business. I know I am one of the lucky ones. Therefore I feel guilty that I feel what I feel, as if I haven’t the right to feel them.

Reflecting on the year brought up much of the distress and anxiety of dealing with Coronavirus in my workplace, managing anxious and fearful staff, dealing with the public, panic buying, stock shortages, curfews, lockdowns and so on. (I wrote 2 posts about this at the time – How has the Covid-19 virus affected my retirement plan?  and Emerging from the storm of Covid-19)

There was so much mixed emotion – on the one hand I was happy I had a job throughout 2020 but on the other, that job had a real chance of coming into contact with the virus. And I was terrified of passing that inadvertently to my elderly parents.

I went to work every day so did not experience the isolation that others lived with during lockdowns and curfews. In fact, my colleagues and I longed for the peace and quiet of home and to some degree, envied those who could work from home, and therefore lessen the danger of contracting the virus.

I now realise that I’d largely suppressed a lot of feelings about 2020 and just got on with it. Honestly, I wasn’t aware of how much underlying anxiety and stress I buried under the surface or how much I carried with me all the time.

Until I came to a standstill on Boxing Day and could not be motivated to do anything. My tiredness has finally caught up with me. So I basically just slept, read and ate. And poured all my concentration into finishing a 1000 piece jigsaw puzzle.

I didn’t have a break between Christmas and New Year except the public holidays as we were short staffed. And as my extended family did not return to Australia for Christmas, I didn’t have a reason to take time off. Note to self – TAKE THE TIME OFF regardless next year (or really, it is this year now)

Shedding tears and letting go of 2020 – that is how I farewelled 2020.

But … there were GOOD things that happened in 2020 too and I learned many lessons.


jigsaw puzzle ice cream cones fallen on marble counter | goodbye 2020

The context for July to December 2020

My Mid Year 2020 Goals Review post was about the first six months where I discussed the disruption to my routines. Well, the second six months was more of the same. Every time I thought I succeeded at sticking to a routine, something else would happen and I’d be back at square one.

The last six months of 2020 was dominated by a ‘hard’ lockdown with curfews from 8pm to 5am initially, then 9pm to 5am for months, from mid July. We had the toughest lockdown conditions in the country to deal with a deadly second surge of cases. Then we had 60 days of zero active cases only to be back to a dozen or so cases before the end of the year. And we are now back to border closures as Sydney battles a new surge of cases.

Our collective mood seem to be at one with active cases. When the active cases were high, we were cautious and anxious and when the numbers were low, we were visibly more relaxed and happy.

Recap of decade goals

2020 was the first time I’d set decade goals – goals I want to achieve within 10 years.

My decade goals are to retire at 55, visit Antarctica and run a marathon. Amazingly, with one year done and dusted, I think I am on target to do the first two but need a LOT more work to tick off running a marathon.

Just articulating the goals somehow made them real and when opportunity struck, I leapt at it. For example, looking for a travel buddy to Antarctica. None of my friends has ever expressed the desire to visit Antarctica so I always thought I’d do it by myself. But lo and behold, when Frogdancer Jones, a fellow late starter to FI and blogger wrote about her new goal of visiting Antarctica, I put up my hand to go with her. This may very well be the first goal I achieve within the decade, yay! 

But how did I fare for my 2020 goals?


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1. Exercise and stretch daily

I am happy to report that stretching is now part of my morning routine. It has been a struggle for years. My personal trainer sent me a video on how to stretch ham strings against the wall while lying on your back in our first lockdown. I watched the video and was put off by how hard one of the exercise was.

Then one day, much much later in the year, I realised that I could do this first thing in the morning. I can continue my snoozing on the floor while stretching my ham strings against the wall. Why didn’t anyone tell me that earlier?

And now while I’m stretching, I manifest money flowing into my life and articulate why I need money. (Refer to my earlier post on How I Transformed my Limiting Beliefs about Money)

The exercise part is still a failure as I just can’t seem to settle into a routine to walk or run. There were many stops and starts. While a lot had to do with lockdown restrictions, I also know that exercise is the first thing I give up whenever life gets a bit complicated.

I will need to do better in 2021 somehow.

woman stretching ham strings against the wall
My stretch does not look like that AT ALL!

2. Journal daily

This was a partial fail, in that I did not journal daily but did keep up the practice at least thrice a week. Writing brings me clarity so I will persist.

3. Read more

I wanted to resume this habit in 2020 as I used to enjoy reading books but somehow stopped when I discovered FIRE and read blogs and listened to podcasts instead. I didn’t have time to read any books except finance related ones.

I smashed this goal and rediscovered my love of reading especially during the lockdowns. It is so good to lose oneself in someone else’s world (even if it is a fictional world) rather than having to face what is going on in my own life 🙂 It was pure escapism.

My goal was to read 20 books. I’d read 33 by the end of June and  ended up reading another 20 books by the end of December, only a handful of which are non fiction.

Once again my Libby app which allowed me to borrow ebooks from my library was a saviour!


4. Be more sustainable

At the beginning of 2020, I commissioned an Energy and Sustainability Assessment on my house. One of the key recommendations was to increase the insulation in my ceiling.

Unfortunately, this is still not completed as the second lockdown imposed strict restrictions on the building industry. They couldn’t work inside any residential building that was occupied, unless it were an emergency and a permit granted. Hopefully it will be done in 2021.

Installing extra insulation would have meant less reliance on heating and cooling and therefore using less electricity and gas.

I was home every day in 2020 compared to travelling 6 weeks overseas in 2019. With that in mind, I am very pleased that my gas bill in 2020 was only $20.66 more than what I spent in 2019.

And electricity was $163.75 less in 2020 compared to 2019. I am very happy with my solar panels!

I wrote about How to reduce your water bill – by reducing your water usage earlier in the year – the aim is to use 155L per person per day as per Victorian guidelines. In 2019 my average was 276L per day; in 2020, my average was 177L per day! Since I only started water saving strategies in February, I’m very happy with the result. Plus my water bill was less by $123.48

I’ve been using vinegar and sodium bicarbonate to clean the bathroom and kitchen, in an effort to reduce buying cleaning products in plastic bottles. So far so good.


5. Declutter

I did not manage to declutter at all! I must be the only person in the world who did not declutter in 2020 🙁

There was a new excuse … all the charity shops were closed due to Covid – who would take my donations? I tried half heartedly in July when I was on annual leave but gave up pretty quickly.

But I did manage to keep my kitchen counter clutter free 🙂 Gotta aim small these days!


young woman staring at orange piggy bank | goodbye 2020
Image by luxstorm from Pixabay

6. Financial goals

a. Invest $25000 in shares portfolio

I always knew this was a stretch goal for 2020.

My wages were lower due to transitioning to a role with lesser responsibilities – 2020 was the first full year on these lower wages.

I invested a total of $23200 – in AFI, WHF and VAS to be specific.

VAS is new to my portfolio. I already had AFI, MLT, BKI and WHF (all LICs ie Listed Investment Companies) in my portfolio and had in the past, decided not to hold VAS as well.

VAS, an ETF (Exchange Traded Fund) tracks the ASX300 while the LICs I own mainly focus on ASX200 companies. So, it’s kind of a duplication.

I like LICs in that they can smooth out their dividends so even in bear markets, they can offer a dividend. As in the case of AFI – which offered dividends throughout the global financial crisis. It is comforting for me, knowing that I will receive an income even during the bad times.

ETFs on the other hand must distribute all its earnings. So in lean years, when the underlying companies stop or reduce their dividends, it follows that there will be less distributions.

But LICs still depend on fund managers to make sound investment decisions, which now makes me a bit uncomfortable. Whereas VAS is a true index tracker and doesn’t rely on good judgement. Therefore I now aim to hold VAS in equal value to my LICs.


b. Maintain salary sacrificing into superannuation until end of June then review

I was hoping to stop salary sacrificing into superannuation this second half of 2020. I had calculated, based on the balance at the end of 2019 that it should double to my target in another 10 years, when I am able to withdraw the money.

However, at the end of June, my super was only just starting to improve after plummeting in March. So I decided to continue salary sacrificing. 

This meant that I did not have enough to invest in my share portfolio outside of super and hence did not make the $25000 goal.

But my super balance has recovered and increased by 9.4% compared to 2019. Should I stop salary sacrificing now? I’ll tell you in my next post!

c. Aim for a savings rate of 50%

At the end of June, my savings rate was 55% so I was on track if I kept to my spending pattern for the next six months.

Unfortunately, that was not to be. I always have larger expenses from July to December – local council rates, home and contents insurance, professional association fees and Christmas to name a few. This year, there were unexpected expenses too.

I paid a home insurance excess of $500 on 2 occasions. I made a claim in July to repair a hole on my porch ceiling from water leakage during heavy rainfalls. Insurance did not cover the wear and tear but covered the repairs to the ceiling.

The second occasion was more recent. I’d returned home to my kitchen and parts of the living room inundated with water pouring out of a burst pipe under the kitchen sink. Insurance did not cover the replacement of pipe and tap or plumber fees (which cost just under $1500) but will cover the cost of repairing my hardwood floor. Some boards have buckled from the moisture.

In October, my front door lock died. So that was another $400 for a new lock and locksmith fees.

I’d recently started a sinking fund for home maintenance. Needless to say, but that fund is more than depleted 🙁

I spent about $1500 on Pinterest, email marketing courses and Online Impact membership. This is an investment in my blogging side hustle – I have so much to learn! I decided as I wasn’t travelling this year, I had the money to invest in myself. To date, I haven’t considered blogging to be a side hustle but will do so from now on. More on that in 2021.

Growing my own vegetables gives me immense pleasure. I would love to be self sufficient one day. Fruits and vegetable prices are increasing all the time – if not from droughts then from lack of labour at the moment to pick them. There just wasn’t enough room in my 1.2mx1.2m and 0.6mx1.2m beds to plant what I needed. So I ‘invested’ in 3 1mx1m wicking garden boxes for the back garden in early December. I’m upping my game considerably!

With all these unexpected or unplanned-for expenses, my overall savings rate for 2020 was 47% (oh, so close!), with total expenses $7182 less than 2019. 2020 was my lowest spending year since I started tracking expenses in 2018. That has to be a win!


3 wooden wicking bed boxes
My new wicking bed vegie boxes

2020 Lessons

The biggest lesson for me in 2020 was that I needed to be resilient, both financially and mentally. I need to be able to bounce back from setbacks.

Although I am thankful that I did not lose my job, I also watched worriedly as my workplace adapted to less customers (and therefore less revenue). Plus we didn’t replace any staff who left.

I will never forget the TV images of long queues of people outside Centrelink offices, waiting to apply for welfare. It is not a scene I associate with being in the ‘lucky country’, Australia.

I am reminded again and again that I must set money aside to look after myself, for those rainy days. My grandmother and mother were correct.

I truly appreciated the value of an emergency fund for the first time and was grateful mine was fully funded. For the first time too, I considered work in other areas of my profession, just in case.

But it was also in 2020, that my blog had enough readership (for a few months at least) to qualify for ads revenue. And even though it is miniscule compared to what I spend on the blog, it gives me hope that maybe, just maybe I can derive a side income and therefore some insurance against a job loss.

Working with anxious and fearful staff and the public in 2020 showed me that how we respond to uncertainty and the unknown matters greatly. The ones who were positive and willing to adapt, performed much better than those who were negative and fearful. It showed me that having a positive mindset was a very powerful asset in life.

It was stressful having split shifts – where our day and evening shifts could not intermingle; one shift left promptly at 5pm by the back door while the evening shift enters via the front door. But we soon adapted and NOT one day shift person longed for extra hours when we ceased split shifts in November.

So that is a huge legacy of 2020 – I now finish work at 5pm! I can be home by 6pm even after a walk after work with my colleague. Unfortunately I need to work on my night routine – surely I can be more productive than falling asleep on the couch.

I learned how to bake sourdough bread and keep a sourdough starter alive; I learned how to bake bagels and pretzels, babka and challah from a bakery in London via Zoom. And once again, via Zoom, I learned how to make bang bang noodles from New York! Really, if I so desired, I could be very addicted to these classes … who knew I could learn anything from a small screen …

Final Thoughts

I shouldn’t feel bad that I didn’t accomplish many of my goals.

2020 was a year of constant change and disruption. Adapting to all these changes and disruption takes a lot of energy. And as one of my blogging friends said to me “You should give yourself some grace for 2020 – it took an emotional toll on you, dealing with all that you did at work”

I want to thank all of you who have read, commented, followed me on social media, interacted with me in any way this year especially Late Starter to FI series contributors. Thank you for your support and encouragement and your willingness to share your stories. I appreciate every single one of you ❤️

So it’s time … 2020, thank you for your lessons.

I am ready to let you go now.

Goodbye, 2020!

How was your 2020? Did you accomplish your goals? What did you learn?

8 Replies to “Goodbye 2020 – letting go of 2020”

    1. Congratulations, Vinnie! What an incredible achievement! Investing gets addictive, when you see progress like that 🙂

      Love your youtube channel, Project Frugal – well done on launching it! Looking forward to seeing its progress too 🙂

  1. Great Post LSF 🙂

    And well done on all these great changes you put in place and all the wonderful things you achieved.

    Despite all the stress that you have experienced, you really have had a year of remarkable change and, nor wanting to be cheesy – GROWTH!


    I am looking forward to reading your post in 12 months telling us all about an even more amazing year you had in 2021.


  2. You may not have technically achieved all your 2020 goals, but, you went VERY close to most of them, and you should be proud of that, especially in the middle of a global pandemic!!!
    And I’m sure that you wouldn’t have got anywhere near as close to those results if you hadn’t set the goals in the first place, so it’s still a win and progress/improvement.
    Here’s hoping 2021 is more comfortable for you.

    1. You are right that if I hadn’t set any goals, I wouldn’t have achieved anything. So it is definitely a win. Thank you very much for your support, Miranda 🙂

  3. I love that you’re upping your garden game! I want to do that this year too. Would love to have some garden boxes such as those!

    And investing $23,000 ish is still an amazing feat! Covid made this past year terrible, but you made the most of it, and I think that’s what counts! Hang in there friend!

    1. Hi Liz,
      Go for it! Veggie gardening is sooooo satisfying – even when you are disappointed with the results, you learn from it and know what to do next time. I’m not a DIYer but if you google ‘wicking bed garden’, there are examples you can make yourself.
      Appreciate your support and encouragement 🙂

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